Just last week, I got an email from the administrator of the junkylife.com set of sites, a place where I had a site for almost exactly two years. I started to blog there in July 2005 and for almost two years, I had no difficulties whatsoever with the site. Suddenly at the end of May or very beginning of June 2007, I could no longer access anything to do with my site. At this point, I had well over 200 entries not to mention all the custom work that I had done on the site itself. Suddenly without any warning, everything seemed to be lost. Up until last week, I had pretty much given up any hope on ever retrieving any of my writings but there just might be a small glimmer of hope for me after all. He is shutting down the site in the very near future but just emailed me to say that he should be able to retrieve all of my past entries. This is magnificent. I don't want to get my hopes up too, too much but if this bit of news is accurate then I'll be getting back all of my writings from when I was seriously using, prior to starting treatment this time. I very much want to be reminded of how bad it had all gotten and relying solely on one's memory, especially a junky's memory, is not the smartest way to go about it.