Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Video News Report of Jim's Stabbing


This news report is pretty good. There are, however, a few graphic images of what the scene of the crime looked like once it was all finished. There is a lot of blood on both the floor and the carpet. Even though I was in no hurry to get back up to the sixth floor, my boss has recommended I stay away until the walls are all painted and the new carpet has been installed.

Second Chance

Right now I am at the hospital with no desire to go to sleep even though I know that I am running on empty. Earlier in the evening, I was able to dose for a little bit anytime Jim settled down, but no matter what kinds or amounts of meds that they were giving him for his pain, the longest amount of time he was still was no more than 40 mins. Once the meds wore off, he would start to get restless and then extremely aggitated especially if he didn't have me in his sight upon waking. I don't think that he is convinced that I am fine physically, that I wasn't hurt in anyway. I am not really sure how much of the attack on him that he actually remembers. I do know that he is having some pretty bad nightmares because the last time that he woke up, he had to be restrained by a handful of nurses. I was also asked to leave them to resolve this which was fine by me because right now I am not really able to see Jim in any sort of pain or distress.

What an awful place the Critical Care Unit can be. While I was typing this, a lady about my age came over to ask me how to get back into see her husband so we started talking. She was about my age with two daughters about Sara and Katies age and she has been with her husband 28 years, the same as Jim and I. Her husband was in a bad motorcycle accident earlier tonight and was air lifted in from Owen Sound. He's not going to make it. He wasn't as lucky as Jim. I feel awful for her and her family. I sort of know how she feels. When they were giving Jim last rights last night I felt such a complete and utter emptiness thinking that he soon might be gone that I couldn't even beging to describe it. I feel so very blessed that he is pulling through because we now will have a second chance.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Jim Has Been Stabbed

There really is no easy way to say any of this stuff. Right now, all that I know is that in less than a minute, your whole life can change. This all resulted while we were simply doing our job. All that we were doing was responding to a routine noise complaint from another tenant on an otherwise quiet Monday afternoon. Although I was glad that Jim didn't have to go through all of this alone, if I could get these horrible images out of my head right now, I would. I witnessed the entire beating. I wish I could have helped more but there was too many of them. They were half our age and obviously bigger and stronger . I will explain more later. I came home for a bit to have a shower, to change and to check on the girls. I am about to return to the hospital. When I left an hour and a half ago, there was no change. He hasn't woken up yet and he is still on a machine to help him breathe - they punctured both his liver and a lung and the doctors had to cut open his chest during the second surgery. He's strong and right now I have to believe he'll come out of this OK. Peace to all.

Three arrests in stabbing
Tue, May 13, 2008

Three persons have been arrested in relation to a stabbing at 951 Wonderland Rd., London city police said today.

A 41-year-old man was taken to hospital yesterday with life-threatening injuries by ambulance after police responded to a call at the apartment building near the Westmount mall at about 5:45 p.m.

No names have been released yet, but the major crime unit of London Police Services is questioning suspects today and continuing their investigation.

Man, 41, in hospital with life-threatening injuries
Tue, May 13, 2008

A 41-year-old man was taken to hospital with life-threatening injuries after an apparent stabbing in London's southwest end late yesterday.

The victim, whose name wasn't released, was taken by ambulance to London Health Science Centre's Victoria Hospital, paramedics said.

Three people were arrested, police said in a brief news release. No names were released, and there was no indication charges had been laid.

The incident took place at 951 Wonderland Rd. South, near the Westmount Shopping Centre, around 5:30 p.m. The area is home to many high-rise apartment buildings.

One caller to The Free Press had earlier reported a large number of emergency vehicles, including police cars, gathered at the scene.

It's uncertain whether the injured man lived at the address where police found him.

"The investigation is unfolding rapidly," London police Staff Sgt. Tom Gaffney said last night.


Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Policy of Truth

OK, so from now on, no more cheating from me - at least until I have stopped to take the time to give you all a proper update! I know that I am long overdue in writing a real and proper post, and by real and proper, I mean one that is rooted in the present, the today, the here and now. Recently, I have kind of been cheating with my posts! I've been using posts that I had written for my previous site, Why Do Anything When You Can Forget Everything?, rather than taking the time to sit down and write something new. Technically, these posts are new as they've never actually appeared on this site but still...

As I have still not figured out how to actually get my old site uploaded again to the internet I thought that there was no harm in sharing something from my archives. A little copying and pasting later and voila! Also, so far any of the archived entries that I've chosen were from the period in my life when I was still actively using. I was hoping with these entries that you would be able to get a more complete picture of who I am and how I managed to get to where I am. Of course, then again, for all I know, you could care less.

Moving right along...I dropped my dose of methadone by 5ml twelve days ago. I went from 70ml down to my current dose of 65ml. This was the first time that I actually noticed the decrease in my dose. For the first four or five days, my body was noticeably stiffer and would remain like this until I got my dose for that particular day. Depending on how long it was between doses, I would also get a dull headache as well as a bit of a runny nose. Again, these too would disappear within about forty five minutes of dosing. By the end of the first week, my body most definitely had adjusted so for the past week, I have been fine on my current dose. Think that I will stay at this amount through May and probably the first part of June.

While I am in no huge rush to taper down completely, I was finding that at the higher doses, my mind was definitely very much on the cloudy side. I also found I seemed way tired most of the time, and the moment that I stopped moving around, I could literally fall asleep instantly - didn't matter if I was lying down or merely sitting down either. Was none too fond of this little side affect I must admit. My mind is no where near as cloudy nor am I as tired as I had been, so for these two things alone, I am eager to see what further results I will get with further reductions.