Policy of Truth

OK, so from now on, no more cheating from me - at least until I have stopped to take the time to give you all a proper update! I know that I am long overdue in writing a real and proper post, and by real and proper, I mean one that is rooted in the present, the today, the here and now. Recently, I have kind of been cheating with my posts! I've been using posts that I had written for my previous site, Why Do Anything When You Can Forget Everything?, rather than taking the time to sit down and write something new. Technically, these posts are new as they've never actually appeared on this site but still...

As I have still not figured out how to actually get my old site uploaded again to the internet I thought that there was no harm in sharing something from my archives. A little copying and pasting later and voila! Also, so far any of the archived entries that I've chosen were from the period in my life when I was still actively using. I was hoping with these entries that you would be able to get a more complete picture of who I am and how I managed to get to where I am. Of course, then again, for all I know, you could care less.

Moving right along...I dropped my dose of methadone by 5ml twelve days ago. I went from 70ml down to my current dose of 65ml. This was the first time that I actually noticed the decrease in my dose. For the first four or five days, my body was noticeably stiffer and would remain like this until I got my dose for that particular day. Depending on how long it was between doses, I would also get a dull headache as well as a bit of a runny nose. Again, these too would disappear within about forty five minutes of dosing. By the end of the first week, my body most definitely had adjusted so for the past week, I have been fine on my current dose. Think that I will stay at this amount through May and probably the first part of June.

While I am in no huge rush to taper down completely, I was finding that at the higher doses, my mind was definitely very much on the cloudy side. I also found I seemed way tired most of the time, and the moment that I stopped moving around, I could literally fall asleep instantly - didn't matter if I was lying down or merely sitting down either. Was none too fond of this little side affect I must admit. My mind is no where near as cloudy nor am I as tired as I had been, so for these two things alone, I am eager to see what further results I will get with further reductions.